Lists

Still feeling incredibly overwhelmed.  I have several "lists" going at the moment, including to do  before I leave, to buy for school, to buy for Christmas gifts, my personal Christmas list, and so on. Every day I just about 10 new things to each of those lists.  When I'm not doing something/anything regarding getting ready for school, I'm literally pacing thinking that I'm forgetting to do something.  I still wake up in the middle of the night thinking about things to add to my lists.  Every blog I read written by students that are/have already gone through this, is only making matters worse.  I thought reading them would be helpful, and in a sense they are, but they are also stressing me out more with telling me new "helpful" hints and things to pack.

So as if I don't have enough lists already, I have come up with a new list.  This is my List of Things That Have Taken Over My Mind:

1) Mom is bugging me with questions that I don't have the answers to, and about having a goodbye party, which I don't really don't have time for.  Sadly, my calender is pretty much filled every day until I leave. She also wants me to go on a trip with her and my dad this weekend.  I rather stay here and get more "stuff" done.

2) Suitcases are packed for when I visit St. Kitts over Thanksgiving.  I'm worried that I'm bringing too much stuff, but then again, this is what all the current students are telling me to bring.  Currently in three suitcases I have toiletries, some school supplies, first aid supplies, some kitchen supplies, towels, and bed sheets/comforter.  I will bring all my clothes and decorating items when I leave in December.  I have also started packing for my DC/NY trip, and the St. Kitts trip.  I feel like I will be living out of suitcases for the next two months with all the trips I will be going on (DC/NY, St. Kitts, and DC again).

3) Of course, I cannot forget that Christmas is right around the corner.  Having to think of gifts on top of packing is not easy.  I have no idea what to get anyone, nor do I have any money.  Love this time of year.....

4) My boyfriend is in my every thought of my every day.  I am constantly worried about him and how he's handling all of this change.    I also feel like I wouldn't be as overwhelmed and stressed out if he was here helping me.

5)  I've been an awful friend, especially to my long distance friends.  Sorry girls!! I love you and miss you so much, but my mind is literally all over the place right now, so please forgive me.  I do plan on seeing each and every one of you before I leave however so keep your calender open!

6) My list of things to do before I leave is probably the longest.  It includes getting a haircut, getting my TMJ night guard, getting my new glasses, last day of the Carolina Raptor Center note and snack, last day of dance snack, last day of work snack, pack for all my trips, get Christmas presents, finishing my scrapbooks, finishing my T-Shirt quilt, selling my old stuff on Ebay/Craig's List, etc.  I think I will add get a MASSAGE to this list as well.


It has been so hard to take one day at a time lately especially since I'm planning weeks in advance.  Our power went out the other day for 7 hours and I was so lost.  I had to get on the internet because I had so much to do!  I really think it was God's way of telling me to slow down.  All I did that night was read and try to relax since I wasn't able to do anything else.  Church service today had to do with God taking, breaking, and blessing us. (He takes the bread, blesses it, breaks it, and gives it out).  It was incredibly powerful and helped put my mind at ease.  I have to keep remembering that he isn't going to give me or take me anywhere that Him and I can't handle together.